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LAST FRIDAY NIGHT

I don’t know how to start this entry since I’m really not good at introductions. Maybe, I’ll just start with HAPPINESS – not just happiness but way beyond happiness.

It’s been months since the last time I saw my Elem-HS barkada; two of them were, ahm, years? LOL, I forgot the last time so MAYBE it was that long (it just saddens me that some of them weren’t able to come because of conflict of schedule).

So, the usual get-together – dinner date, catching up, and post activities. It was then I realized that time flies so fast that we’d laugh out all of the “bloopers” and stories during the good ol’ days. It’s funny how we made fun of our petty fights and arguments in that circle. Each story seems like yesterday, and trying to relish every memory makes me miss school even more; and friends-turned-siblings during that time the most.

However, it pains me that I still don’t have something “new” to share with them especially on the most-discussed topic – LOVELIFE. LOL. Okay. Ako na ang matagal na nag-move-on HAHAHA Seriously, I feel that I’m left behind in terms of this. But I still do believe that God has someone for me, patience it is. >:)))

Love you, Xar 🙂

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It’s been a year :)

Have you ever thought that it’s been a year since we bid goodbye to our dearest alma mater?

We were overwhelmed when we entered the University as senior students for the first time. Indeed, it was the final year, two semesters, and we were done.

I could still recall our last year in college; it was full of memories worth keeping. Each day had passed talking the usual topics: homework, seatwork, food, requirements, rants, personal and random stuff, and how we look forward for graduation.

We never felt it at first until we scheduled our graduation picture photo shoots. Months or weeks later, the much-awaited retreat, deadline of theses, Christmas Party, Paskuhan, and there, the year 2011 has closed its curtains.

Three more months and we were done. Admit it, some never felt the “graduation spirit” until we attended job seminars and thesis defense. It was really fast approaching.

We started discussing our plans and ambitions, daydreaming how we would look like once we landed on our destined jobs. How excited we were to acquire the first and succeeding salary, and at the same time sharing each others’ fears in stepping into the different world.

We were like toddlers, trying to walk for the first time, the only difference is, we already know the concept of fear.

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Have you ever thought that it’s been a year since we first started to look for dream jobs?

We’ve attended various seminars and job fairs. Some searched for jobs together; some on their own.

One day, a blockmate was hired, in two weeks, there’s another, by next month, two, three, four had already entered various companies. How anxious the rest of the unemployed group were. They thought that they will never ever have a job but they just kept on believing that a job is really out there waiting for them.

The waiting period was tough especially adding the job rejections and “we’ll call you” on top, it was as if not having a partner at the age of mid-30’s. It was really heartbreaking.

Have you ever thought that it was a year full of expectations unexpected situations?

Before the year 2012 ended, most of us already got into various companies and organizations. We never thought that it would be this one hell of a joy ride.

Some were happy and contented with their jobs but I believe most have their own stories on their dilemma and problems on their current work.

The stress that keeps on beating us, the doubtful decisions in the certain choices we face, the sudden shift on dealing with strangers-turned-officemates.

We’ve read blog entries and articles just to uplift our spirit and to search for answers to our questions especially on the things we try to understand in this reality. Yes, professors and older people have warned us how different work world would be but we never thought that this would be IT.

Have you ever thought that it was a year full of realizations?

In a span of one year, we’ve realized a lot. Reaching one’s dream is not easy if you’re being practical in this real world; making decisions is not never easy because we fear that we (and people around us) might suffer with the consequences; making money and at the same time budgeting is NEVER ever easy; becoming independent is never easy. Time management is never easy especially balancing work, social life, and family.

We’ve grown, we’ve become mature.

Have you ever thought that it was another year full of memories?

We’ve hold onto each other with all the rants and successes for that one year. We can depend on others but clinging with college blockmates is different. I believe so because most of us have similar dreams and aspirations, and we know the fire in our passion. We have encountered a tough college life – from school works to dealing with one another – and we’ve made it through TOGETHER.

We randomly meet, dine and chill together, just talk about everything until the break of dawn. We still celebrate birthdays together, we still remember one another, we continue to support each other.

Have you ever thought that it will be another year in this insane and fast-paced world?

Keep hanging on, keep dreaming, keep searching, and keep believing. This is just the beginning, we’ll get used to it, and we’ll be good in this complicated game.

Cheers for a successful year JRN2 loves! I love and miss you! God Bless! :* >:D<


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To Ms. 3Jrn2 2010 :D

I was able to see my college friends after so many months. Hooray for the first of September! 😀 We went to Korean Cultural Center last Saturday to accompany Ehm2’s sister to enroll in one of the classes there. Since we have borrowed something from someone there months ago, we decided to return it as well.

So, while waiting for Ehm2’s sister, we (Ehm2, Almira and me) stayed in the library (which is, by the way, my favorite library ever) and savored every moment. Almira then started doodling (even drew the hanky I used that day but she insisted that she didn’t copy it haha) and ended up with this short message.

I wanted to also write my reply but she told me to  just send it online HAHA So, here’s my reply! 😀

Hey there Almira!

I’m so glad to see you too! Too bad I wasn’t able to come to some (or most) of the bonding moments. Though I really want to spend some time with you guys, I really can’t because of personal reasons </3 HAHA I do hope you understand :’) Anyway. I missed you too! See you when I see you, Peek-a-boo! >:)) Good luck! And I love you too! :* >:D<

P.S. I apologize for my really late reply. In case you wanna know, I read the letter two days after you gave it to me :))) I’m really sorry :))

Love,

Bhabz  🙂 *Insert pig and panda doodles here*


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Realizations

I just read my friend’s entry regarding their retreat a few days ago. If you want to read it, check Dan’s entry here 🙂

I suddenly remembered our retreat last December 5-7 at Caleruega, Batangas. I’ve been waiting for that time since it was my first time to attend retreat WITHOUT parents. So I was thinking, I’d be having some quality and super fun time with my blockmates. And, I DID 🙂

At first, I was really excited to bond with my 6JRN7 family without even thinking the real essence of retreat. Honestly, I didn’t feel the “God-and-Me” with my 2 previous retreats. It was parent-child and parent-teen so I spent most of my time with my guardian and observed my usual “house” behavior. I focused more of the “me” and “guardian” without really feeling His presence. Or maybe, I was not mature enough and I’ve never been in emotional pain.

All I wanted was to bond, forget school stuffs, and have fun with my block after 4 years of ups and downs. There was something I’ve never expected.

I could still remember how I arrived in school with Franz (who unexpectedly rode the FX I was in). My blockmates greeted me “Kamusta ka na?”, “Okay ka na?” upon entering the bus because I suffered from Pharyngitis for a whole week and wasn’t able to come to school. I was really nervous during those bed rest times because I might not be able attend our “most-awaited” retreat. We departed, and arrived in Caleruega.

It was odd because we were allowed to use cellphones and cameras on that three-day retreat. In other retreats, everything had to be surrendered. Oh, by the way, it was quite disappointing that there were sessions done with other classes. But luckily, activities were done by section.

The highlight of our first day, we were asked to draw like a logo of ourselves, six-word memoir, and timeline, then shared it with the class later that night. Everyone had the chance to share but quite disappointed because minadali nalang yung iba (that includes me HAHA) because it was really late and we really need to get some sleep. I really wanted to share that night because that was the opportunity to let out all the hard feelings I had. So, I was quite AWW :l because I could relate to some of them and I just wanted to share HAHAHA. After that activity, I got to know my blockmates, their problems. I realized one thing, there someone out there who’s also suffering from problems – big, and a lot bigger – who are trying to live their lives like other people does.

Highlights for the second day? It included telling a positive thing about someone 🙂 I can’t help but cry when I reached these two people who I really missed badly. It was fun but “kaubos-luha” HAHA Then, there was confession – the confession that really touched my heart and full of realizations. Of course, BONFIRE 🙂 Boom Shaka-laka, Boy Pickups and more, then it rained :l

As for the last day, time capsule and mass 🙂 Of course, class picture 🙂

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CR Ardi's cam 🙂

They were strangers who became my blockmates, friends, and now, they’re my siblings 🙂 We are like a family – full of laughs and misunderstandings. We’ve been through challenges and happy moments together, and our relationship is a lot stronger now 🙂

With all honestly, though there were gadgets, Kodak moments, and bonding, I felt “God-and-Me”. The sessions were really good, and I’d realize something after each session. After all the activities, I’d realize something. All I had to do was reflect. There may be outside forces that can distract you, but if you’ll reflect, you’ll find Him.

After that retreat, I felt renewed and stronger – spiritually and emotionally 🙂