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If you are depressed, you are living in the Past. If you are anxious, living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the moment.

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If you are depressed, you are living in the Past. If you are anxious, living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the moment. – Lao Tzu

What does that mean?
This quote is a favorite of mine, even if I can’t find a solid attribution (but lots of places say it’s his quote).

If we are focused on the past, we are probably depressed. We’re either comparing today to how good things used to be in the past, or we are second guessing decisions we made or actions we took some time ago.

If we are focused on the future, we are probably anxious. We’re either worried about how badly things could turn out, or we are worried that the decisions we made yesterday won’t help us as much as we might have hoped.

If we are focused on this moment, largely to the…

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Rant

I can’t concentrate with what I am supposed to do because there’s something that really bugs me. I hate the feeling that I’m not updated with the latest stories of my friends, that I don’t have time for them.

I’m really the type who wants to know the latest or at least ‘meddle’ with their lives (lol) and I really hate it everytime I tell them to see them real soon but it would just end there. College friends often ask me out but I can’t due to some responsibilities; High school and elementary friends often ask me to plan out a mini-reunion but it ends not so well. Not that I hate my life, it’s just that I really need to balance everything – from family to work to friends. I don’t want to sacrifice a thing or I might end up regretting it.

My mom just lost her very good friend. She lost contact with her but she could’ve done something to reach out for her. It just didn’t happen due to some reasons. The reasons are quite acceptable but my mom wasn’t able to bid goodbye to her for the last time, and now she regrets it.

I don’t want it to happen to me EVER. I am trying but it seems that I can’t. Oh well, I’ve had regrets before, and I don’t want it to happen again 😐

Just some rant, I apologize for wasting your time 😐


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BLESSED :)

We had our Staff Annual Activity last week and it was great SUPERB.

I was really overwhelmed because I rarely attend team buildings or outing with friends (me and my tragic life LOL). Anyway, I really felt that my officemates have become part of my life, that they have become my family.

I never imagined that this is the kind of work world that I’m gonna be in. When I was still studying, I imagined strict bosses, hard to get along officemates, a world that is so complex that you’ll end up crying every night. Hey, I was wrong, there’s still a wonderful work place for people and I judged the work world a little over the line.

I believe they see us (the newbies) as their own children; of course knowing the boundaries between work and usual conversations. They treat us with love and care, not just us, but our immediate families as well. The feeling of concern from them, the feeling that you can trust them because they will never let you down.

I don’t know how to swim and there they were (and I mean ALL of them in the pool), trying to teach me everything that I can learn. No, I never felt fear everytime I submerged myself because I know they will never allow something bad shall happen to me. Yes, I trust them and I really appreciate their parent-like attitude.

We are lucky blessed to be in this Department, I feel contented with where I am right now. I was introduced to persons that will not destroy myself, hence strengthen me especially spiritually. If given the chance, I would like to stay here as long as they tell me to stay.

My searching-for-job time was crucial but I never thought that this is God’s way of telling me that He really has plans for me and I must trust Him. I am really blessed, blessed to meet these awesome people. Thank God for this job, Thank God for this family. Indeed, You are the best! 🙂


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Why You Can’t Let Go

“think back on an instance where you were in the throes of depression or anxiety, and couldn’t understand how or why your life was turning out the way it was. How did that situation turn out? Probably fine. Because that’s where we all eventually end up.”

Thought Catalog

You know what you’re holding onto. I know what I am. And I also know that there are many others that have, are, or will be, holding onto something as well. Sometimes it’s for a minute and sometimes it can last for years. Regardless, it’s debilitating. It’s paralyzing. It keeps you stuck in what could have been.

After we seek all the advice we can, it usually rounds out to the same thing: it’s time to let go and move on. If you’re anything like me, just reading that sentence made your heart sink a little and you’re filling up with resistance, shame and anger. You don’t want to let go. You want to hold on until you’re right. You want to hold on until the situation resolves itself the way you want it to.

Because what’s the alternative? You have to go on without that person or thing that…

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It’s been a year :)

Have you ever thought that it’s been a year since we bid goodbye to our dearest alma mater?

We were overwhelmed when we entered the University as senior students for the first time. Indeed, it was the final year, two semesters, and we were done.

I could still recall our last year in college; it was full of memories worth keeping. Each day had passed talking the usual topics: homework, seatwork, food, requirements, rants, personal and random stuff, and how we look forward for graduation.

We never felt it at first until we scheduled our graduation picture photo shoots. Months or weeks later, the much-awaited retreat, deadline of theses, Christmas Party, Paskuhan, and there, the year 2011 has closed its curtains.

Three more months and we were done. Admit it, some never felt the “graduation spirit” until we attended job seminars and thesis defense. It was really fast approaching.

We started discussing our plans and ambitions, daydreaming how we would look like once we landed on our destined jobs. How excited we were to acquire the first and succeeding salary, and at the same time sharing each others’ fears in stepping into the different world.

We were like toddlers, trying to walk for the first time, the only difference is, we already know the concept of fear.

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Have you ever thought that it’s been a year since we first started to look for dream jobs?

We’ve attended various seminars and job fairs. Some searched for jobs together; some on their own.

One day, a blockmate was hired, in two weeks, there’s another, by next month, two, three, four had already entered various companies. How anxious the rest of the unemployed group were. They thought that they will never ever have a job but they just kept on believing that a job is really out there waiting for them.

The waiting period was tough especially adding the job rejections and “we’ll call you” on top, it was as if not having a partner at the age of mid-30’s. It was really heartbreaking.

Have you ever thought that it was a year full of expectations unexpected situations?

Before the year 2012 ended, most of us already got into various companies and organizations. We never thought that it would be this one hell of a joy ride.

Some were happy and contented with their jobs but I believe most have their own stories on their dilemma and problems on their current work.

The stress that keeps on beating us, the doubtful decisions in the certain choices we face, the sudden shift on dealing with strangers-turned-officemates.

We’ve read blog entries and articles just to uplift our spirit and to search for answers to our questions especially on the things we try to understand in this reality. Yes, professors and older people have warned us how different work world would be but we never thought that this would be IT.

Have you ever thought that it was a year full of realizations?

In a span of one year, we’ve realized a lot. Reaching one’s dream is not easy if you’re being practical in this real world; making decisions is not never easy because we fear that we (and people around us) might suffer with the consequences; making money and at the same time budgeting is NEVER ever easy; becoming independent is never easy. Time management is never easy especially balancing work, social life, and family.

We’ve grown, we’ve become mature.

Have you ever thought that it was another year full of memories?

We’ve hold onto each other with all the rants and successes for that one year. We can depend on others but clinging with college blockmates is different. I believe so because most of us have similar dreams and aspirations, and we know the fire in our passion. We have encountered a tough college life – from school works to dealing with one another – and we’ve made it through TOGETHER.

We randomly meet, dine and chill together, just talk about everything until the break of dawn. We still celebrate birthdays together, we still remember one another, we continue to support each other.

Have you ever thought that it will be another year in this insane and fast-paced world?

Keep hanging on, keep dreaming, keep searching, and keep believing. This is just the beginning, we’ll get used to it, and we’ll be good in this complicated game.

Cheers for a successful year JRN2 loves! I love and miss you! God Bless! :* >:D<